One of the blessings of a smart phone is being able to send yourself a "message" that is saved for another day. I find that I must do this regularly with articles and memes that I want to ponder when I'm not on the go. One such extended reflection, "Why Art?" by Peggy Rosenthal, included this quote by Greg Wolfe of The IMAGE Journal:
Art's method is precisely to search out a new form to help us see the content we already know as if for the first time. Art thrives on shocks of recognition. Some are truly shocking, with an immediate effect. Most are subtle, time-delayed fuses that detonate deep in our subconscious and move something that needs dislodging. In a sense, every encounter with a great work of art is a conversion experience.
Art provokes a sensory meeting with wisdom or pathos. It evokes and embodies truth within us and in real time and we can never be the same. Unless, of course, like those who enjoyed a Beethoven sonata before breakfast and then went to administer the atrocities of the gas champers, we are stubbornly committed to denial. "Art shapes the ordinary so that we're struck dumb by it," Rosenthal writes, "so that everything starts to matter."
Art gives shape to our experience. Without it, our days would sludge along like a long, slow mudslide. But with art, the sluggish flow stops; we see a human figure carved in the mud, the clay. It's a figure of pride... or of pain... or of reaching, longing, stretching toward the meaning without which our lives are clogged with sludge." (Rosenthal)
The musician, Peter Gabriel, echoes that insight when he notes:
Music opens up channels of feeling dammed by habit, excessive individualism or the demands of daily life... The philosopher Hegel argued that music is so necessary because it rehearses in the language of the body concept and truths we are in danger of losing touch with when they reach us only through our rational functions. Music is the sensuous presentation of the crucial ideas.
When I was ordained into Christian ministry 35 years ago, I knew that the integration of music - and all the arts - into worship was important - I just didn't know why. I had no philosophic wisdom about the function of music nor any profound theological awareness. I simply felt in my gut that music "takes an ice pick to the heart" (as Nietzsche wrote) I would see it happening during Sunday worship in Cleveland when our organist played Bach's "Sheep Safely Graze" upon receiving the news that one of our flock had passed into life eternal. When we began experimenting with new Good Friday liturgies - using disturbing or challenging contemporary secular music in the retelling of the Passion narrative - old insights were unlocked and brought to the surface, too.
(NOTE: I have been exploring the Good Friday venue for 15 years. After fretting and fussing about why so few Protestants came out for that service - in my tradition it has always been the worst attended event in the sacred calendar - I started to use U2 and then the blues followed by other experiments of lament and grief to reconnect our souls with the eternal wisdom of this story. This year we will weave some vocal tunes through the instrumental improvisations of John Coltrane's masterwork, "A Love Supreme" for Good Friday.)
Art, in general, and music, in specific, has the power to awaken us in creative and compassionate ways. Kathleen Raine writes:
Strangest of all is the ease with which our vision is lost, consciousness contracts, we forget over and over again, until recollection is stirred by some icon of beauty. Then we remember and wonder why we ever forgot.
John O'Donohue writes in the introduction of Beauty: Rediscovering the True Sources of Compassion, Serenity and Hope: "Beauty is the endless and elusive theme. What beauty is can never be finally said. This exploration is limited and tentative." I have discerned that a renewed commitment to the quest for beauty is an essential ingredient for worship - and new liturgies, too - especially in our Reformed tradition that is woefully ignorant and often antagonistic to aesthetics. Small wonder that so many have abandoned the faith when it is simultaneously ugly, boring, and shaming. The same might be said for the "new" churches that worship in antiseptic auditoriums or warehouses and speak only of the gospel of prosperity. They, too, do nothing to awaken pathos and are impotent in the face of tragedy and despair. Peter Gabriel got it right: "Music (an art) opens up channels of feeling dammed by habit, excessive individualism or the demands of daily life."
Friday, February 19, 2016
Thursday, February 18, 2016
too much stupid s#*!
Today Carrie Newcomer posted these words from the late Howard Thurman:
“Don’t ask yourself what the world needs. Ask yourself what makes you come alive, and go do that, because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”
There are days when I ask myself, "Why do people of faith ask me to give attention to stupid shit?" If that is too blunt, I beg your pardon, but it is accurate: stupid shit. Petty things and frivolous demands that neither bring joy and life to my existence, nor deepen the calling of Christ's church in community. Most of this involves incidental criticism or self-absorbed preferences rather than anything of consequence. Small wonder that Jesus told his homies back in Nazareth: "No prophet is accepted in his hometown." He was being neither cynical nor snarky, just brutally honest in a poetic manner, because he might have added, "Familiarity apparently breeds contempt," too. On Transfiguration Sunday I gave myself - and our community - a challenge: let's encourage one another rather than complain or judge. I think that is a worthy Lenten challenge. So I am attempting a fast from reacting harshly to the stupid shit I hear nearly every day. But in order to honor this fast, I have realized I must name it from time to time or else it will seep into my soul and poison it with resentment. To date, the only antidote I know to the stupid shit is laughter and rest.
That means periodic Lenten naps are an absolutely essential.spiritual discipline. So, too are stories that search out ways to name the stupid shit without malice. Sometimes they are self-deprecating - those are my favorites - but there's also room for yarns like those spun by the creator of "the stupid shit my father says" blog. Those tales can point out the absurdity that not only strain human credulity, but must confront God every second of creation with shock: we truly are incredible creations who, most of the time, have no clue about the stupid shit we think is important.
I was telling Dianne some of the stuff that came my way today and after hearing a portion of it she proclaimed: Do people REALLY think that shit is important? It made me laugh out loud because yes, apparently they do. Thanks be to God the day has come to a close and we could laugh together. I suspect that there are others who are laughing at my stupid shit, too. Such is the humility of this discipline, yes? So, like St. Paul, I say rejoice - and again I say rejoice:
“Don’t ask yourself what the world needs. Ask yourself what makes you come alive, and go do that, because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”
“Don’t ask yourself what the world needs. Ask yourself what makes you come alive, and go do that, because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”
There are days when I ask myself, "Why do people of faith ask me to give attention to stupid shit?" If that is too blunt, I beg your pardon, but it is accurate: stupid shit. Petty things and frivolous demands that neither bring joy and life to my existence, nor deepen the calling of Christ's church in community. Most of this involves incidental criticism or self-absorbed preferences rather than anything of consequence. Small wonder that Jesus told his homies back in Nazareth: "No prophet is accepted in his hometown." He was being neither cynical nor snarky, just brutally honest in a poetic manner, because he might have added, "Familiarity apparently breeds contempt," too. On Transfiguration Sunday I gave myself - and our community - a challenge: let's encourage one another rather than complain or judge. I think that is a worthy Lenten challenge. So I am attempting a fast from reacting harshly to the stupid shit I hear nearly every day. But in order to honor this fast, I have realized I must name it from time to time or else it will seep into my soul and poison it with resentment. To date, the only antidote I know to the stupid shit is laughter and rest.
That means periodic Lenten naps are an absolutely essential.spiritual discipline. So, too are stories that search out ways to name the stupid shit without malice. Sometimes they are self-deprecating - those are my favorites - but there's also room for yarns like those spun by the creator of "the stupid shit my father says" blog. Those tales can point out the absurdity that not only strain human credulity, but must confront God every second of creation with shock: we truly are incredible creations who, most of the time, have no clue about the stupid shit we think is important.
I was telling Dianne some of the stuff that came my way today and after hearing a portion of it she proclaimed: Do people REALLY think that shit is important? It made me laugh out loud because yes, apparently they do. Thanks be to God the day has come to a close and we could laugh together. I suspect that there are others who are laughing at my stupid shit, too. Such is the humility of this discipline, yes? So, like St. Paul, I say rejoice - and again I say rejoice:
“Don’t ask yourself what the world needs. Ask yourself what makes you come alive, and go do that, because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”
Wednesday, February 17, 2016
becoming a child who is loved simply for being...
I am agog over the depth of
insight offered in this short quote from the late Henri Nouwen:
The
great temptation is to use our obvious failures and disappointments in our
lives to convince ourselves that we are really not worth being loved. Because
what do we have to show for ourselves? But for a person of faith the
opposite is true. The many failures may open that place in us where we have
nothing to brag about but everything to be loved for. It is becoming a child
again, a child who is loved simply for being, simply for smiling, simply for
reaching out.
I was thinking about this after today's midday Eucharist: our small gaggle of pilgrims gathers each week at 12 noon (or thereabouts) come snow, cold, rain or shine. And it feels like each of us, while very different, comes simply to be loved. We gather in the Chancel quietly while some music wraps itself around us for a few minutes. Then we open our eyes to one another and our hearts to God's love knowing that we need all of this love just like a child reaching out for assurance. We sing and spend 20 minutes in lectio divina (Psalm and Gospel) and there is always some hidden gift revealed during our conversation. It is profoundly moving to me the tender trust that has taken root during this time: no judgment, no critique, just reaching out and honoring the love.
And after an embrace of Christ's peace, we make a circle around the Communion Table and pray the new/old words of the Lord being broken to make us whole. We serve one another, pray for one another and sing ourselves back into our working day by 1 pm. Each of us comes with a hunger - and we keep coming back - because in ways greater than ourselves, this hunger is fed in us by God's presence. In another observation, Nouwen wrote:
Underneath all our emphasis on successful action, many of
us suffer from a deep-seated, low self-esteem. And so our actions become more
an expression of fear than of inner freedom. As
we keep our eyes directed at the One who says, 'Do not be afraid,' we may
slowly let go of our fear. We will learn to live in a world without zealously
defended borders. We will be free to see the suffering of other people, free to
respond not with defensiveness, but with compassion, with peace, with
ourselves.
Most weeks I conclude that the most important things I do grow out of celebrating Eucharist with my friends in tenderness.
Monday, February 15, 2016
when you're feeling down... dance, baby, dance
Ok, there are tons of important things to write about and to paraphrase my spiritual guide: they will always be with us. Sadly, poverty, bigotry, fear and violence are not going away anytime soon, yes? So, after a day of engaging the principalities and powers - and giving time to the Lord in prayer - anyone out there listen to some stupid, shake yer booty music and dance around the house like no one's watching? It is good therapy, folks, and helps keep this clergy person sane during these bone-chilling days with windchill of -35F below zero. Tonight, these tunes got the fires roaring for me before church council:
Tommy Tutone's 1981 hit "867-5309" - a song that was reborn in the late 90s with hand motions in classrooms all across America - and just makes you want to jump around. There is nothing redeeming or socially useful about it, but damn is it fun!
Next up is Cameo's 1986 monster: "Word Up." It is so damn funky and fun that no matter how down, abused or confused I feel, when I hear these cats get down I have to to get into the action and start shakin' the bacon. Why, this is more fun than Rick James' "Super Freak" and I luv Rick James.
Damn but I love me some "Word Up" - and I just wouldn't be honest if I didn't give sister Willis an honorary mention for her KILLER remake of this song. Heard one night on CSI: Las Vegas and it knocked me on my butt. It blows away the blues in spades, so take a moment right now and let its magic wash over you. Do not pass go or fretter this chance away: just freakin' listen!
And last but not least is Dire Straits brilliant 1985 send up: Money For Nothing! When that guitar cuts through the synthesizers... OMG! The world stops for a second and simply launches me out of my seat into something resembling St. Vitus Dance! It gets all spazzy and unrefined to be sure, but the groove is so sweet. Again, totally nothing in the song is socially redeemable but... I just can't help myself.
Oh, hell, there's two more that always makes me smile no matter how shitty the day has been: Le Freak by Chic in 1978. That driving disco bass under Nile Rogers' incredible guitar riff makes you want to go to Studio 54 one more time and do a little more dirty dancin' with the one you love.
And who can resist that kicks ass number by Sheryl Crow from 2009: "Steve McQueen?" (I would have added Rod Stewart's "Hot Legs" but that would send me straight to hell with some dear friends.) This DOES have socially valuable content and it flips some of the sexual stereotypes, too. But mostly it just knocks it out of the part as a rock and roll dance song. Oh yes!
Tommy Tutone's 1981 hit "867-5309" - a song that was reborn in the late 90s with hand motions in classrooms all across America - and just makes you want to jump around. There is nothing redeeming or socially useful about it, but damn is it fun!
Next up is Cameo's 1986 monster: "Word Up." It is so damn funky and fun that no matter how down, abused or confused I feel, when I hear these cats get down I have to to get into the action and start shakin' the bacon. Why, this is more fun than Rick James' "Super Freak" and I luv Rick James.
Damn but I love me some "Word Up" - and I just wouldn't be honest if I didn't give sister Willis an honorary mention for her KILLER remake of this song. Heard one night on CSI: Las Vegas and it knocked me on my butt. It blows away the blues in spades, so take a moment right now and let its magic wash over you. Do not pass go or fretter this chance away: just freakin' listen!
And last but not least is Dire Straits brilliant 1985 send up: Money For Nothing! When that guitar cuts through the synthesizers... OMG! The world stops for a second and simply launches me out of my seat into something resembling St. Vitus Dance! It gets all spazzy and unrefined to be sure, but the groove is so sweet. Again, totally nothing in the song is socially redeemable but... I just can't help myself.
Oh, hell, there's two more that always makes me smile no matter how shitty the day has been: Le Freak by Chic in 1978. That driving disco bass under Nile Rogers' incredible guitar riff makes you want to go to Studio 54 one more time and do a little more dirty dancin' with the one you love.
And who can resist that kicks ass number by Sheryl Crow from 2009: "Steve McQueen?" (I would have added Rod Stewart's "Hot Legs" but that would send me straight to hell with some dear friends.) This DOES have socially valuable content and it flips some of the sexual stereotypes, too. But mostly it just knocks it out of the part as a rock and roll dance song. Oh yes!
Sunday, February 14, 2016
just don't go thinking you deserve any of it (redux)
We ate pancakes, French toast and corn muffins at the start of maple sugar season this morning with our daughter and son-in-law at Ioka Valley Farms. Both the people and the place are sweet and I left filled and grateful. It always does my soul good to reconnect with these two: they are wise, gentle and creative beings who bring a bit of quiet goodness and humor into an all too crazy world. I love to listen to their stories and insights. I find myself nourished by the way they engage the people and land of Western Massachusetts. And I regularly leave their company returning thanks to God for the chance to be friends with my adult daughter and her beloved.
As our late brunch slathered in butter and maple syrup was devoured, we caught up on a recent visit shared with my Aunt Thelma. She is the only surviving sibling in my late mother's once vibrant clan of seven. It was heart warming to hear some of the old stories my aunt recalls about our days in the early 60s when my Grandma Nick's 30+ grandchildren regularly played with one another each summer or during school vacations. It was equally fascinating to hear how some of the details from my other cousins lives have been conflated into those of my own experiences. Apparently I survived a motorcycle accident in family legend. Winton noted wryly, "I think they confused you with Bob Dylan." (I have never driven or owned a bike.) And I couldn't help laughing at the tales this visit with my Aunt dredged up from my own fuzzy memory, too.
This photo was taken in 1965 at the Mescall Family Reunion. By 1970, when my parents moved to Georgia and I left for college in Sheboygan, WI, it was rare to see these folks again. I remained close with my Aunt Donna, just a few years older than me, until her death in the late 90s. From time to time, I would reconnect with my other aunts too, mostly at funerals, but then our lives moved away from one another again. All have now gone home except Thelma. Through the ambiguous blessing of technology, Face Book has helped me renew connections with a few of my cousins in this picture after nearly 40 years. And Michal's work on the wider family's history put her in touch with other second cousins doing likewise.
After all the stories and food had been consumed, Winton took us into the sugar house to see how the liquid gold is created. He works with regional maple producers and Ioka Farm is the largest in the state of Massachusetts. The owner gave us a tour of their state of the art facility that turns the sap of over 22,000 trees into gallons of top grade maple syrup. If you are ever in the area, Ioka Valley Farm is well worth a trip. (check it out here: http://www.iokavalleyfarm.com /spring/sugar-house/) As the temperatures plunged below zero and the wind in the Berkshires howled,we hugged one another good-bye for a spell (and received a new supply of old New Yorkers to read and then recycle) and headed back to our homes.
Over the years, Michal has quietly but insistently taught me something about the beauty of small
moments shared deeply. I wasn't always a good student, but she was persistent and now, I pray, I get it - or at least some of it. In John O'Donohue's gem of a book, Beauty: The Invisible Embrace, he writes:
The subtle touches of beauty are what enable most people to survive... beauty is so quietly woven through our ordinary days that we hardly notice it. Everywhere there is tenderness, care and kindness, there is beauty... and when we experience beauty, we feel called. The Beautiful stirs passion and urgency in us and calls us forth from aloneness into the warmth and wonder of an eternal embrace. It unites us again with the neglected and forgotten grandeur of life. The call of beauty is not a cold call into the dark or the unknown; in some instinctive way we know that beauty is no stranger. We respond with joy to the call of beauty because in an instant it can awaken under the layers of the heart a forgotten brightness...(but) beauty does not linger, it only visits... it invites us into its rhythm, it calls us to feel, think and act Beautiful for a life without delight is only half a life.
As this cold day comes to a colder close, I give thanks for the gift they shared with us today and cherish it as precious. Our visits always call me back to the insight Scott Cairns shared in his poem, "Imperative."
The thing to remember is how
tentative all of this really is.
You could wake up dead.
Or the woman you love
could decide you're ugly.
Maybe she'll finally give up
trying to ignore the way
you floss your teeth as you
watch television. All I'm saying
is that there are no sure things here.
I mean, you'll probably wake up alive,
and she'll probably keep putting off
any actual decision about your looks.
Could be she'll be glad your teeth
are so clean. The morning might be
full of all the love and kindness
you need. Just don't go thinking
you deserve any of it.
As our late brunch slathered in butter and maple syrup was devoured, we caught up on a recent visit shared with my Aunt Thelma. She is the only surviving sibling in my late mother's once vibrant clan of seven. It was heart warming to hear some of the old stories my aunt recalls about our days in the early 60s when my Grandma Nick's 30+ grandchildren regularly played with one another each summer or during school vacations. It was equally fascinating to hear how some of the details from my other cousins lives have been conflated into those of my own experiences. Apparently I survived a motorcycle accident in family legend. Winton noted wryly, "I think they confused you with Bob Dylan." (I have never driven or owned a bike.) And I couldn't help laughing at the tales this visit with my Aunt dredged up from my own fuzzy memory, too.
This photo was taken in 1965 at the Mescall Family Reunion. By 1970, when my parents moved to Georgia and I left for college in Sheboygan, WI, it was rare to see these folks again. I remained close with my Aunt Donna, just a few years older than me, until her death in the late 90s. From time to time, I would reconnect with my other aunts too, mostly at funerals, but then our lives moved away from one another again. All have now gone home except Thelma. Through the ambiguous blessing of technology, Face Book has helped me renew connections with a few of my cousins in this picture after nearly 40 years. And Michal's work on the wider family's history put her in touch with other second cousins doing likewise.
After all the stories and food had been consumed, Winton took us into the sugar house to see how the liquid gold is created. He works with regional maple producers and Ioka Farm is the largest in the state of Massachusetts. The owner gave us a tour of their state of the art facility that turns the sap of over 22,000 trees into gallons of top grade maple syrup. If you are ever in the area, Ioka Valley Farm is well worth a trip. (check it out here: http://www.iokavalleyfarm.com /spring/sugar-house/) As the temperatures plunged below zero and the wind in the Berkshires howled,we hugged one another good-bye for a spell (and received a new supply of old New Yorkers to read and then recycle) and headed back to our homes.
Over the years, Michal has quietly but insistently taught me something about the beauty of small
moments shared deeply. I wasn't always a good student, but she was persistent and now, I pray, I get it - or at least some of it. In John O'Donohue's gem of a book, Beauty: The Invisible Embrace, he writes:
The subtle touches of beauty are what enable most people to survive... beauty is so quietly woven through our ordinary days that we hardly notice it. Everywhere there is tenderness, care and kindness, there is beauty... and when we experience beauty, we feel called. The Beautiful stirs passion and urgency in us and calls us forth from aloneness into the warmth and wonder of an eternal embrace. It unites us again with the neglected and forgotten grandeur of life. The call of beauty is not a cold call into the dark or the unknown; in some instinctive way we know that beauty is no stranger. We respond with joy to the call of beauty because in an instant it can awaken under the layers of the heart a forgotten brightness...(but) beauty does not linger, it only visits... it invites us into its rhythm, it calls us to feel, think and act Beautiful for a life without delight is only half a life.
As this cold day comes to a colder close, I give thanks for the gift they shared with us today and cherish it as precious. Our visits always call me back to the insight Scott Cairns shared in his poem, "Imperative."
The thing to remember is how
tentative all of this really is.
You could wake up dead.
Or the woman you love
could decide you're ugly.
Maybe she'll finally give up
trying to ignore the way
you floss your teeth as you
watch television. All I'm saying
is that there are no sure things here.
I mean, you'll probably wake up alive,
and she'll probably keep putting off
any actual decision about your looks.
Could be she'll be glad your teeth
are so clean. The morning might be
full of all the love and kindness
you need. Just don't go thinking
you deserve any of it.
pilgrimage for lent one...
NOTE: it was -17F this morning and we gave thanks that the wind quit. About 35 strong souls joined us for the First Sunday of Lent; others were ill, had cars that wouldn't start or took advantage of the beginning of a school vacation. But we began a Lenten pilgrimage with Jesus towards Jerusalem this morning - with only a few technical mishaps. The straw in a small flower display caught fire, one candle completely melted and a scented candle caused a bit of distress - all things that can be fixed this week - so I call success for our first week. Here are my written notes for the start of the season.
· In time, two other possibilities for pilgrimage emerged. Additional holy places closer to home like the Camino de
Santiago – a shrine to St. James the brother of Jesus in Spain - or the font of
Celtic Christianity at the Isle of Iona became Lenten pilgrimage destinations.
And, for those who could not afford to make these trips, the 14 different regional
churches that St. Francis had suggested might replace a trip to Jerusalem started
to be incorporated inside individual Roman Catholic sanctuaries. Now each local congregation could create
shrines along the walls of their Sanctuary depicting the Stations of the Cross.
What a truly meditative and
spiritually counter-cultural practice in this age of busyness and deadlines. It
makes me think of walking with my grandson, Louie, who has no particular place
to go and is in no particular rush to get there. In this, we might let Lent
help us become playful children of the Lord. Henri Nouwen once wrote that the key to
spiritual maturity is to receive all love as a pure and free gift: So much of the time, however, we let all “our obvious failures
and disappointments convince ourselves that we are really not worth being
loved. Because what do we have to show for ourselves? But for a person of faith
the opposite is actually true. The many failures can open that place in us
where we have nothing to brag about but every-thing to be loved for. It is how
we become a child again, a child who is loved simply for being, simply for
smiling, simply for reaching out.” That’s what Lent is
truly for: helping us become spiritually
mature enough that we cherish beginner’s mind – like a child – one that is loved
simply for being. This requires getting out of our heads for a time…
+
Introduction
There is a stark, simple beauty and
truth to both the desert and the season of winter. The
Quaker educator, Parker Palmer, put it
like this in his spirituality of winter:
Winter has an
even greater gift to give us than quiet and beauty: It comes when the sky is
clear, the sun brilliant, the trees bare, and the first snow has yet to arrive.
It is the gift of utter clarity. In winter, one can walk into woods that had
been opaque with summer growth only a few months earlier and see the trees
clearly, singly and together, and see the ground that they are rooted in.
In this, winter is like the retreat house I
used to visit at the start of nearly every Lent in Tucson. The Desert House of
Prayer was dedicated to the spirituality of Thomas Merton. You may know Merton
as the father of contemporary contemplation and social action in the United
States. He taught that the severe clarity of the desert had much to offer a hyper-stimulated
America – especially when it comes to being honest with ourselves. Like our New England winters, the desert
clears the landscape of our souls so that we can see ourselves plainly – brutally
and without encumbrance – even to the core of our being.
Small wonder that the season of Lent always
starts with the journey of Jesus into the desert: we all need extended times to free our heads
of stress and expectations. So Jesus
models this for us with his wandering in the wilderness for 40 days and 40
nights. He makes a pilgrimage of sorts into the desert for two reasons:
· First, because the desert was a place of
mystery, uncertainty, and testing for ancient Israel. In our tradition, God’s people left their bondage in Egypt only
to spend 40 years being purified, tested, and refined in the desert before they
were able to enter the Land of Promise as new beings. Lent speaks to us of our own sorting and
refinement – a late winter cleansing of the soul – for this is our season of
Exodus.
· And second, because pilgrimage is a symbolic
way of giving shape and form to our inner quest for the Lord, there are
specific Lenten practices to embody on our way to the Promised Land.
This season has always been spoken of as a physical journey through a
barren place rather than a compilation of doctrine: from the start,
Christianity has recognized the human beings need to practice externally what
we ache to become within: namely, authentic, healthy and faithful children of
God.
Insights
Christians, you see, have been
experimenting with unifying body and mind through the practice of pilgrimage
since our origins: the prophets made a
practice of extended retreats; Jesus went on a pilgrimage to the desert, the
mountains as well as the sea and the Jordan River from time to time; and after
Easter, Christ’s followers periodically performed their prayers by traveling to
similar places of significance and solitude.
· The earliest pilgrims went to Jerusalem to walk the Way of
the Cross. There were no established places
for these spiritual wanderers to stop for reflection, so in the early days they
just began at the Mount of Olives and the Garden of Gethsemane and walked until
they were inspired by the Spirit to rest and pray. In time their route became known as the Via
Dolorosa – an informal Way of Sorrows – where people found something of God’s
mercy by walking to the story of Jesus and his Cross.
· By the 12th century of the Common Era, a surge
of interest in pilgrimage throughout the Middle East and Europe arose. But the warfare of the Crusades made it dangerous and
complicated so two alternatives to travelling to Jerusalem were created: the Labyrinth and the Stations of the
Cross. The labyrinth – like that in the
Cathedral of Chartres completed in 1193 – allowed people to spiritually walk to
Jerusalem in the relative safety of their regional holy place. And the Stations
of the Cross – probably first suggested by St. Francis of Assisi in the 12th
century – linked 14 regional churches together each with a specific meaning and
prayer based on the passion of the Christ.
· In time, two other possibilities for pilgrimage emerged. Additional holy places closer to home like the Camino de
Santiago – a shrine to St. James the brother of Jesus in Spain - or the font of
Celtic Christianity at the Isle of Iona became Lenten pilgrimage destinations.
And, for those who could not afford to make these trips, the 14 different regional
churches that St. Francis had suggested might replace a trip to Jerusalem started
to be incorporated inside individual Roman Catholic sanctuaries. Now each local congregation could create
shrines along the walls of their Sanctuary depicting the Stations of the Cross.
Now the
whole point of making a pilgrimage is to incorporate your body into your
prayers: you let your feet move you
closer to God’s love, you choose to leave your comfort zone for the as yet
undiscovered blessings of mystery and paradox, you let your eyes and other
senses open your soul to possibilities, and you do all of this as part of a
community. Like the
discipline of yoga, that integrates body and breath with postures and meditation,
pilgrimage honors body and soul in a way that is deeply personal and boldly
communal. And because we have such a
huge Sanctuary that is woefully underused each Sunday – mostly we simply sit
and stand and sometimes sing - I thought we ought to have a go at exploring the
spirituality of pilgrimage for our time.
· So, if you have noticed, there are five rest stops located
throughout our Sanctuary. As I understand it, on any traditional
pilgrimage during Lent, in addition to the sacred places of devotion like the
River Jordan where Jesus was baptized or the Golgotha where he was crucified,
there are also planned places for rest.
There is a rhythm to spirituality of pilgrimage – you are active in
walking, then you pause for reflection; you are physically on the go and then
you stop your body to let new insights rise up from your experiences – and
that’s part of what I hope we will play with during Lent.
· The other hope I have for our journey is that we practice
our pilgrimage slowly, mindfully, and quietly. Let me encourage you
to saunter to one of the rest stops – you can go to the first one or you
can go to any of the others – as you pause to light a candle. You can go in
chronological order or you can make up your own order. But do so in a
sauntering spirit. The word saunter comes from the Middle English santren – to muse – but I like Thoreau’s
take on the word. It isn’t technically true, but is useful. He speaks of walking as those French souls who
were on their way to the Holy Land – Sainte Terre – people who would take all
the time necessary to be gently observant about their journey.
What a truly meditative and
spiritually counter-cultural practice in this age of busyness and deadlines. It
makes me think of walking with my grandson, Louie, who has no particular place
to go and is in no particular rush to get there. In this, we might let Lent
help us become playful children of the Lord. Henri Nouwen once wrote that the key to
spiritual maturity is to receive all love as a pure and free gift: So much of the time, however, we let all “our obvious failures
and disappointments convince ourselves that we are really not worth being
loved. Because what do we have to show for ourselves? But for a person of faith
the opposite is actually true. The many failures can open that place in us
where we have nothing to brag about but every-thing to be loved for. It is how
we become a child again, a child who is loved simply for being, simply for
smiling, simply for reaching out.” That’s what Lent is
truly for: helping us become spiritually
mature enough that we cherish beginner’s mind – like a child – one that is loved
simply for being. This requires getting out of our heads for a time…
I don’t believe that Lent was ever
intended to be a punitive time – it can be a season of harsh honesty, ok – but
only in service of clearing our heads and freeing our hearts of distraction. It
can be a season of relinquishment that encourages greater compassion for
ourselves, our neighbors and our world. At another time, Nouwen offered this
insight that I hope you will carry with you throughout Lent. He said: "Judgment in the eyes
of the Lord begins with Jesus becoming one of us in humility. So God does not
really judge us but rather reveals to us what we have become to one another.
The day of judgment is in fact the day of recognition, the day on which we see
for ourselves what we have done to our brothers and sisters, and how we have
treated the divine body of which we are part.
So the question: 'What have you done for the least of mine?' is not only
the question of injustice and the question of peace, it also is the question by
which we judge ourselves. The answer to that question will determine the
existence or nonexistence of our human family." Are you with me?
Lent is about a humble honesty that leads us towards compassion.
Today’s gospel story tells us that after
the Lord’s baptism, he went into the desert to get honest with himself. In his
baptism he heard God’s blessing – YOU ARE MY BELOVED – and that is a promise
made to each and all of us. Our baptism
is a reminder that we have been bathed and saturated in God’s blessing. We,
like Jesus, are God’s beloved. And like Jesus, we, too have challenges –
temptations – shadows that can obscure and even diminish God’s blessings in our
lives.
That’s what the story of these temptations
is about: wrestling with what it means to be God’s beloved sharing love and
hope in the world but in a vulnerable and sometimes broken body. Jesus got
brutally honest with himself out in the desert – he owned his weaknesses – his
desire for power, his ego, his deep hungers. He didn’t deny them – he faced
them, experienced them, confessed them – and that’s what Lent asks of us, too.
Fr. Ed Hays, who drew the images we’re using around our Sanctuary, put it like
this: Like the Master, you also will frequently be tempted to choose the ways
of the world instead of the ways of your cross. Daily you will be tempted to be
practical as you confront the problems of life. The seduction is to
behave like a realistic son or daughter of the pragmatic world instead
of responding as a beloved daughter or son of God.
One of my favorite musicians, Carrie
Newcomer, recently addressed the temptation to give up being God’s beloved in
favor of being realistic or pragmatic when she wrote: What would it be like
if everyday everyone did something that was all heart, something that might
seem senseless to the sensible world? I do believe
there would be more songs and poems, more fruit pies and chalk drawings on the
sidewalk. More people would grab their sweetheart and dance in the kitchen or
lay down in the green woods just to feel the earth support them. I think more
people would vote their conscience and not hedge their bets. More of us would bring apples and chocolate to share at work just
because. We'd call someone in the middle of the day just to say "I'm
sorry" or "I miss you" or "You are a treasure to me beyond
words or measure." We'd probably be surprised, delighted and chagrined
more often. We might end up in places we did not expect to go. It might feel
more risky...but it would surely be interesting. So maybe today is the
day to listen to your heart and do something that does not compute.
Lent should give us the space – the
time and the safety, too – to saunter around God’s holy land with these kinds
of questions for a while. Someone said that when we pray in the Lord’s Prayer,
“Lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil,” the truth is that God
never leads us into temptation, we get there all by ourselves. It is always our
choice – and as long as we are vulnerable and human we will have to wrestle
with our choices. Sometimes we’ll pause
and invite God’s guidance – at other times we’ll rush to judgment, shoot from
the hip and give in to the temptation.
But, please understand, it is always our choice.
Conclusion
So, during Lent let’s tenderly wrestle
with – and clarify for ourselves – what God is asking you to relinquish. Let’s
take the time to saunter together, letting our Sanctuary become a resting place
on our pilgrimage to the Holy Land. And let’s connect our bodies to our minds
in prayer as we move about this place. Remember: you are the beloved so
please nourish and strengthen the sacred love that is within your sweet self.
We’re going to give you some meditative traveling music so: alors laissez le pèlerinage en terre sainte
commence!
credits
Friday, February 12, 2016
pilgrimage into winter and lent...
It is brutally cold outside and growing colder. The old timers have been waiting patiently for this
moment when the frigid air steals your breath unexpectedly. Like a friend long gone into mystery, who suddenly shows up one night at supper time with a bottle of wine and tales of adventure and romance, this part of winter is welcome in these parts. I heard the understated gratitude in the voices of those who gathered at a church business meeting last night. I saw it on their faces, too: this is a homecoming of sorts for our friend has returned. Not that they want her to overstay her welcome, mind you. New Englanders love to complain about this guest's overdue departure almost as much as they cherish her arrival. We're a cranky and stubborn lot. And yet at least for a few days, the bitter chill feels right.
Parker Palmer was observed that seasons are a "wise metaphor for the movement of life." Rather than speak of life as a battlefield or a game of chance, he encourages us to think of life in ways that are "infinitely richer and more promising."
The notion that our lives are like the eternal cycle of the seasons does not deny the struggle or the joy, the loss or the gain, the darkness or the light, but encourages us to embrace it all - and to find in all of it opportunities for growth. If we lived close to nature in an agricultural society, the seasons as metaphor and face would continually frame our lives. But the master metaphor of our era does not come from agriculture - it comes from manufacturing. We do not believe that we "grow" our lives - we believe that we "make" them. Just listen to how we use the word in everyday speech: we make time, make friends, make meaning, make money, make a living, make love. (Let Your Life Speak)
For the past decade I have been trying to fast from marketplace metaphors like bottom line thinking, making a decision, and earning the right to be trusted. I know it is the dominant theme of my era and infects all aspect of life. Still, for people committed to creativity and compassion, there is a richer, more nuanced, and even more satisfying way of speaking and thinking. Palmer quotes Alan Watts who said: "A Chinese child will ask, 'How does a baby grow?' But an American child will ask, 'How do you make a baby?' From and early age, we absorb our culture's arrogant conviction that we manufacture everything, reducing the world to mere "raw material" that lacks all value until we impose our designs and labor on it."
Such arrogance also promotes an addiction to binary thinking: life is about winning and losing, solving problems, discovering cures, and eliminating pain. There is a place for this, of course, and I enjoy seeing my favorite baseball team win against their historic rivals. I am relieved when my doctor finds a solution to Dianne's back pain after carefully eliminating possible causes..But sports, science and industry are not the totality of life. They have a place within the whole, but only just that: a place. Intellectual and moral obsession with utilitarian paradigms promotes a shriveled imagination and a stunted conscience. "What does it profit a man (or woman) to gain the whole world but lose their soul?" asked Jesus. Palmer concludes:
If we accept the notion that our lives are dependent on an inexorable cycle of seasons, on a play of powers that we can conspire with but never control, we run headlong into a culture that insists, against all evidence, that we can make whatever kind of life we want, whenever we want it. Deeper still, we run headlong into our own egos, which want desperately to believe that we are always in charge. We need to challenge and reform these distortions of culture and ego - reform them toward ways of thinking and doing and being that are rooted in respect for the living ecology of life. Unlike "raw material" on which we make all the demands, this ecology makes demands on us even as it sustains our lives. We are here not only to transform the world but also to be transformed.
Small wonder that some sigh in quiet relief that a wind chill of 35 below zero has returned for a
few days. There is a truth greater than our arrogance, a wisdom and rhythm to life beyond our control. I feel this way about the return of Lent - and have been aching for it just below the surface of my awareness. Like our homecoming for winter, I too breathed a sigh of relief on Ash Wednesday. Joining with six other clergy colleagues, we marked the start of a Holy Lent together with the imposition of ashes, prayer, song and Eucharist. Over 30 people from my congregation joined our ecumenical feast that starts the great fast of this season. Snow was falling. The wind hurt my face in the dark of night. And still, people of all ages, classes, gender and race made a point to be present in community. Clearly, we needed to be together to pray: Create in me a clean heart, O God.
Tomorrow we'll head out into the cold to join our children for pancakes at the beginning of the maple season. On Sunday, when it will be colder still, we will mark the first Sunday of Lent. I have no idea how many will show up for the predictions are for a chill of painful proportions. I can't wait. This year, we will be experimenting with walking meditation during worship. Five rest stations have been set up throughout the Sanctuary to parallel places of reflection on a pilgrimage through Lent. After my homily, we'll play some introspective jazz and invite the gathered folk to pray with their feet for a time. They can wander throughout the wilderness of the church, pausing to kneel or light candles, or simply sit and take in the beauty of God's grace.
Lent, like the deep wisdom of winter, "clears the landscape, however brutally, giving us a chance to see ourselves and each other more clearly, to see the very ground of our being." Palmer ends his reflection on winter spirituality with words that resonate for me about Lent:
Until we enter boldly into the fears we most want to avoid, those fears will dominate our lives. But when we walk directly into them - protected from frostbite by the warm garb of friendship or inner discipline or spiritual guidance - we can learn what these fears have to teach us. Then we discover once again that the cycle of the seasons is trustworthy and life-giving, even in the most dismaying season of all.
moment when the frigid air steals your breath unexpectedly. Like a friend long gone into mystery, who suddenly shows up one night at supper time with a bottle of wine and tales of adventure and romance, this part of winter is welcome in these parts. I heard the understated gratitude in the voices of those who gathered at a church business meeting last night. I saw it on their faces, too: this is a homecoming of sorts for our friend has returned. Not that they want her to overstay her welcome, mind you. New Englanders love to complain about this guest's overdue departure almost as much as they cherish her arrival. We're a cranky and stubborn lot. And yet at least for a few days, the bitter chill feels right.
Parker Palmer was observed that seasons are a "wise metaphor for the movement of life." Rather than speak of life as a battlefield or a game of chance, he encourages us to think of life in ways that are "infinitely richer and more promising."
The notion that our lives are like the eternal cycle of the seasons does not deny the struggle or the joy, the loss or the gain, the darkness or the light, but encourages us to embrace it all - and to find in all of it opportunities for growth. If we lived close to nature in an agricultural society, the seasons as metaphor and face would continually frame our lives. But the master metaphor of our era does not come from agriculture - it comes from manufacturing. We do not believe that we "grow" our lives - we believe that we "make" them. Just listen to how we use the word in everyday speech: we make time, make friends, make meaning, make money, make a living, make love. (Let Your Life Speak)
For the past decade I have been trying to fast from marketplace metaphors like bottom line thinking, making a decision, and earning the right to be trusted. I know it is the dominant theme of my era and infects all aspect of life. Still, for people committed to creativity and compassion, there is a richer, more nuanced, and even more satisfying way of speaking and thinking. Palmer quotes Alan Watts who said: "A Chinese child will ask, 'How does a baby grow?' But an American child will ask, 'How do you make a baby?' From and early age, we absorb our culture's arrogant conviction that we manufacture everything, reducing the world to mere "raw material" that lacks all value until we impose our designs and labor on it."
Such arrogance also promotes an addiction to binary thinking: life is about winning and losing, solving problems, discovering cures, and eliminating pain. There is a place for this, of course, and I enjoy seeing my favorite baseball team win against their historic rivals. I am relieved when my doctor finds a solution to Dianne's back pain after carefully eliminating possible causes..But sports, science and industry are not the totality of life. They have a place within the whole, but only just that: a place. Intellectual and moral obsession with utilitarian paradigms promotes a shriveled imagination and a stunted conscience. "What does it profit a man (or woman) to gain the whole world but lose their soul?" asked Jesus. Palmer concludes:
If we accept the notion that our lives are dependent on an inexorable cycle of seasons, on a play of powers that we can conspire with but never control, we run headlong into a culture that insists, against all evidence, that we can make whatever kind of life we want, whenever we want it. Deeper still, we run headlong into our own egos, which want desperately to believe that we are always in charge. We need to challenge and reform these distortions of culture and ego - reform them toward ways of thinking and doing and being that are rooted in respect for the living ecology of life. Unlike "raw material" on which we make all the demands, this ecology makes demands on us even as it sustains our lives. We are here not only to transform the world but also to be transformed.
Small wonder that some sigh in quiet relief that a wind chill of 35 below zero has returned for a
few days. There is a truth greater than our arrogance, a wisdom and rhythm to life beyond our control. I feel this way about the return of Lent - and have been aching for it just below the surface of my awareness. Like our homecoming for winter, I too breathed a sigh of relief on Ash Wednesday. Joining with six other clergy colleagues, we marked the start of a Holy Lent together with the imposition of ashes, prayer, song and Eucharist. Over 30 people from my congregation joined our ecumenical feast that starts the great fast of this season. Snow was falling. The wind hurt my face in the dark of night. And still, people of all ages, classes, gender and race made a point to be present in community. Clearly, we needed to be together to pray: Create in me a clean heart, O God.
Tomorrow we'll head out into the cold to join our children for pancakes at the beginning of the maple season. On Sunday, when it will be colder still, we will mark the first Sunday of Lent. I have no idea how many will show up for the predictions are for a chill of painful proportions. I can't wait. This year, we will be experimenting with walking meditation during worship. Five rest stations have been set up throughout the Sanctuary to parallel places of reflection on a pilgrimage through Lent. After my homily, we'll play some introspective jazz and invite the gathered folk to pray with their feet for a time. They can wander throughout the wilderness of the church, pausing to kneel or light candles, or simply sit and take in the beauty of God's grace.
Lent, like the deep wisdom of winter, "clears the landscape, however brutally, giving us a chance to see ourselves and each other more clearly, to see the very ground of our being." Palmer ends his reflection on winter spirituality with words that resonate for me about Lent:
Until we enter boldly into the fears we most want to avoid, those fears will dominate our lives. But when we walk directly into them - protected from frostbite by the warm garb of friendship or inner discipline or spiritual guidance - we can learn what these fears have to teach us. Then we discover once again that the cycle of the seasons is trustworthy and life-giving, even in the most dismaying season of all.
Wednesday, February 10, 2016
a harsh beauty and clarity: Lent 2016
And so it begins - Ash Wednesday and the journey of Lent. For some reason unknown to me, I am very ready for this penitential season to get rolling: it feels like another deepening in my soul. Last night, coming home from choir practice, Dianne said to me: Everywhere I look there are signs for Valentine's Day - red hearts and red lights - what about Lent?!?" I've been feeling much the same tension, too: what about Lent?Like Parker Palmer says about the spirituality of winter, so too for the stripped-down and humble way of Lent. In the closing essay of Listening to Your Life, he writes that besides the quiet and the stark, simple beauty of this season:
Winter has an even greater gift to give. It comes when the sky is clear, the sun brilliant, the trees bare, and the first snow yet to come. It is the gift of utter clarity. In winter, one can walk into woods that had been opaque with summer growth only a few months earlier and see the trees clearly, singly and together, and see the ground that they are rooted in.
There is no fluff, no bullshit, nothing extraneous or convoluted about Lent. As in all death, there is a unique clarity offered to us in Lent that is a gift albeit a profoundly unsentimental one. Palmer writes that "winter clears the landscape, however brutally, giving us the chance to see ourselves and each other more clearly, to see the very ground of our being." Such clarity and truth could hold meaning for our relationships, our vocation, our spirituality, politics or even our emotional well-being. For at the core of Lent is the unambiguous call to "pick up our Cross and follow Jesus." Fr. Ed Hays has prayed that "all too often we reject our Cross that is prepared for us because we have judged it too heavy, too shameful or gauged its burden to be too much for us" at this moment in time. He continues:
May we learn how our Cross has a secret purpose in your sacred scheme of healing and hope, O Lord, that our lives might be aligned with the liberation of the world.

That is what is grabbing my imagination and heart this Lent: learning how the Cross I have been given both aligns my life with the Lord's and contributes to the liberation of the world. Today, at midday Eucharist, we spent time with Psalm 51: create in my a clean heart, O God. One of the reasons I think this simple and quiet gathering holds such appeal is that we do lectio divina - sacred reading - where everyone gets to share what ever they are feeling about the scripture. There are no obviously right or wrong feelings about how a particular text strikes you on any given day. There is just the moment saturated in God's gracious presence - and then the feast. Like 21st century monastics, we silently slip into the Chancel, pick up our liturgy and Psalter and take in the stillness at noon. .We sing a capella, we read antiphonally and wait for the Spirit to lead our sharing. The beauty of winter - and Lent - guide the hour.
When the candles were extinguished and I was washing the chalice, I thought back to Fr. Richard Rohr writing for today re: "an alternative orthodoxy." He posted that while much of Christianity is concerned with redemption, the way of St. Francis starts with incarnation. In the birth of Jesus at Christmas there is already Easter because the incarnation affirms that what has been created is already good and filled with God's blessing. I sense this every time our small group gathers to honor - and become - the Body of Christ. Rohr concludes with this:
For much of Christian history we've severely limited people's
in-depth experience of God by making religious faith largely into a set of
mental abstractions. We split the mind from the body and both of them from the
spirit. Many of us are now victims of not knowing how to receive, access,
enjoy, suffer, and appreciate what can only be known in its wholeness. No wonder so many have left the church, doubt the truth of
Christianity, become practical materialists inside the church (including many
clergy) or agnostics and atheists outside the church (including many who are
actual "believers"). I am not sure which is sadder. What they seem to
affirm or seem to reject is too often not the real thing anyway. As wise Augustine
said in the 4th century, "God has many that the church does not have; and
the church has many that God does not have." Any who put body and spirit
together are already "had" by God! They are privileged to "carry
in their bodies the very brand marks of Jesus" (Galatians 6:17).
One of the small signs of hope that I see is midday Eucharist: it is not powerful, it has no pretense of being exciting, and it changes very little in the grand scheme of our congregation's culture. But, like Christmas, it is a tender sign of God's quiet presence growing within and among us. We will bring the spirituality of midday Eucharist to Sunday morning during Lent with one addition: walking meditation and body prayer. Today we closed singing an Iona reworking of St. Patrick's Breastplate to the tune of "Morning Has Broken."
Christ be
beside me, Christ be before me, Christ be behind me: King of my heart.
Christ be
within me, Christ be below me, Christ be above me: never to part.
Christ on my
right hand, Christ on my left hand, Christ all around me:\
shield in the strife.
Christ in my
sleeping Christ in my sitting, Christ in my rising: light of my life.
Tuesday, February 9, 2016
politics, fat tuesday and ash wednesday...
We called-off our ministry teams last night because of snow - a good call - as about 5" fell over
the course of the afternoon and evening. It is light and dry so won't be hard to clear away, but the roads were slick and troublesome. That means today I will need to play catch up with getting ready for Ash Wednesday: I have a midday Eucharist tomorrow as well as a role in the ecumenical gathering @ 7 pm. Two long standing concerns are continuing to mature in my heart as Lent arrives:
+ The first has to do with the very nature of pastoral ministry. When I began, I embraced both the burden and the joy of caring for the people of a congregation. This meant cultivating a tolerance for church politics. I have always cherished celebrating the sacraments. And I am organically called into a contemplative way of being. So when I speak of church politics, I do not mean the partisan jockeying for power that takes place in elections. Rather I'm talking about the more nuanced task of listening, shepherding, managing and encouraging people in leadership to move beyond their comfort zones so that we might change the culture of a congregation. As much as this work has been wearisome over the years, I have always known that "organizing" is an essential ingredient of renewal. This fact has not changed, but I have. William Willimon put it like this in a recent article in the Christian Century entitled, "Why Leaders Are a Pain." He writes: "This may be the first generation of pastors in centuries to whom God has given the intimidating assignment of not only loving but changing the church."
When the San Damiano crucifix spoke to Francis of Assisi, it didn’t say, “Love everybody, particularly the birds.” Christ told Francis, “Rebuild my church.” That’s the task. One may criticize pastors at times for seizing upon secular leadership and management books, but at least give them credit for realizing that they have a daunting leadership task ahead of them—a job made more formidable because of the traits most pastors bring to the work.
And the reason why this work is so complex has something to do with our culture's insistence that we can make profound changes without pain. This is dishonest, maybe even delusional, and it is widespread. In my experience it also corrupts the inevitable "politics" of the church by erasing the centrality of the Cross in our shared lives. The only rubric for Jesus was "pick up your Cross and follow me." That is the core of the Lenten journey. It is the heart of our standard confession of faith. But it is what most of us hate to embrace - we want comfort not the pain of change.
Speaking to the church of his day, G. K. Chesterton said that if you love how a fence post looks and want to preserve it, you must repaint it every year. A faithful church can’t be maintained without constant reformation. One of Heifetz’s insights is particularly memorable to me: a real leader, he says, induces pain—the pain the organization has been studiously avoiding. The pain is induced, he said, in the faith that the organization has the resources to shape its future.
Church politics without the Cross exhausts me. It is hard enough to work in the shadow of the Cross, but without it the work becomes shallow and selfish.
+ The second concern about my role as parish clergy in the 21st century is equally vexing: besides having no stomach or patience for church politics, I have a growing appetite for spiritual direction Perhaps it is the perspective of time, perhaps it is because I am tired of being a pain bearer, but in the years that I have left, being a mentor or spiritual guide has a whole lot more juice for me than church politics. I am not saying that I want to retreat into a cave and only nourish my own soul. Not at all. I am saying that I need find a better balance between strengthening the faith of individuals and trying to move a slow changing institution into the 21st century. Richard Rohr wrote about this tension in the life of St. Francis.
the course of the afternoon and evening. It is light and dry so won't be hard to clear away, but the roads were slick and troublesome. That means today I will need to play catch up with getting ready for Ash Wednesday: I have a midday Eucharist tomorrow as well as a role in the ecumenical gathering @ 7 pm. Two long standing concerns are continuing to mature in my heart as Lent arrives:
+ The first has to do with the very nature of pastoral ministry. When I began, I embraced both the burden and the joy of caring for the people of a congregation. This meant cultivating a tolerance for church politics. I have always cherished celebrating the sacraments. And I am organically called into a contemplative way of being. So when I speak of church politics, I do not mean the partisan jockeying for power that takes place in elections. Rather I'm talking about the more nuanced task of listening, shepherding, managing and encouraging people in leadership to move beyond their comfort zones so that we might change the culture of a congregation. As much as this work has been wearisome over the years, I have always known that "organizing" is an essential ingredient of renewal. This fact has not changed, but I have. William Willimon put it like this in a recent article in the Christian Century entitled, "Why Leaders Are a Pain." He writes: "This may be the first generation of pastors in centuries to whom God has given the intimidating assignment of not only loving but changing the church."
When the San Damiano crucifix spoke to Francis of Assisi, it didn’t say, “Love everybody, particularly the birds.” Christ told Francis, “Rebuild my church.” That’s the task. One may criticize pastors at times for seizing upon secular leadership and management books, but at least give them credit for realizing that they have a daunting leadership task ahead of them—a job made more formidable because of the traits most pastors bring to the work.
And the reason why this work is so complex has something to do with our culture's insistence that we can make profound changes without pain. This is dishonest, maybe even delusional, and it is widespread. In my experience it also corrupts the inevitable "politics" of the church by erasing the centrality of the Cross in our shared lives. The only rubric for Jesus was "pick up your Cross and follow me." That is the core of the Lenten journey. It is the heart of our standard confession of faith. But it is what most of us hate to embrace - we want comfort not the pain of change.
Speaking to the church of his day, G. K. Chesterton said that if you love how a fence post looks and want to preserve it, you must repaint it every year. A faithful church can’t be maintained without constant reformation. One of Heifetz’s insights is particularly memorable to me: a real leader, he says, induces pain—the pain the organization has been studiously avoiding. The pain is induced, he said, in the faith that the organization has the resources to shape its future.
Pastors
ought to know this lesson; it often surfaces in counseling sessions. How many
times have I had a parishioner seek my counsel on a problem, and after
listening empathetically, I foolishly ask, “Have you considered doing X?” “I
couldn’t do that,” comes the reply. “So and so would never allow me to do
that.”I then
put forth a few more scenarios and hear about more obstacles and objections.
Finally I say, “I can’t think of a way forward that would not require pain for
you or someone else.” “I’m
disappointed in you, pastor,” grumbles the parishioner on the way out.
The
promise of all bogus religion is the promise of a peaceful life without pain.
That’s also the subtext of lots of sermons I hear and some of the ones I
preach: pain is avoidable, and here’s my formula for living and loving without
discomfort. To which Jesus might respond: What about the word cross do you not get?
Church politics without the Cross exhausts me. It is hard enough to work in the shadow of the Cross, but without it the work becomes shallow and selfish.
+ The second concern about my role as parish clergy in the 21st century is equally vexing: besides having no stomach or patience for church politics, I have a growing appetite for spiritual direction Perhaps it is the perspective of time, perhaps it is because I am tired of being a pain bearer, but in the years that I have left, being a mentor or spiritual guide has a whole lot more juice for me than church politics. I am not saying that I want to retreat into a cave and only nourish my own soul. Not at all. I am saying that I need find a better balance between strengthening the faith of individuals and trying to move a slow changing institution into the 21st century. Richard Rohr wrote about this tension in the life of St. Francis.
Early on, Francis found himself so attracted to
contemplation, to living out in the caves
and in nature, that he was not sure if he should dedicate his life to prayer or to action. So he asked Sister Clare and Brother Sylvester to spend some time in prayer about it and then come back and tell him what they thought he should do. After a few weeks, they both came back. Francis knelt down and put his arms out, prepared to do whatever they told him. They both, in perfect agreement, without having talked to one another, said Francis should not be solely a contemplative; nor should he only be active in ministry. Francis was to go back and forth between the two (much as Jesus did). Francis jumped up with great excitement and immediately went on the road with this new permission and freedom.
and in nature, that he was not sure if he should dedicate his life to prayer or to action. So he asked Sister Clare and Brother Sylvester to spend some time in prayer about it and then come back and tell him what they thought he should do. After a few weeks, they both came back. Francis knelt down and put his arms out, prepared to do whatever they told him. They both, in perfect agreement, without having talked to one another, said Francis should not be solely a contemplative; nor should he only be active in ministry. Francis was to go back and forth between the two (much as Jesus did). Francis jumped up with great excitement and immediately went on the road with this new permission and freedom.
When I returned from Montreal I was starting to think of myself as a friar - one who takes time with both the inward and outward journey - a clergy person who lives in the balance of prodding the comfortable into painful choices and encouraging them to trust in God's grace, too. When I find myself extra weary with church politics, it is a clue that I've slipped out of balance. My reaction is a reminder that I have lost touch with the wisdom of the Cross, too. The late Henri Nouwen put it like this and his tenderness is just what the doctor ordered:
The great temptation is to use our obvious failures and disappointments in our lives to convince ourselves that we are really not worth being loved. Because what do we have to show for ourselves? But for a person of faith the opposite is true. The many failures may open that place in us where we have nothing to brag about but everything to be loved for. It is becoming a child again, a child who is loved simply for being, simply for smiling, simply for reaching out.
And so we move towards Ash Wednesday...
The great temptation is to use our obvious failures and disappointments in our lives to convince ourselves that we are really not worth being loved. Because what do we have to show for ourselves? But for a person of faith the opposite is true. The many failures may open that place in us where we have nothing to brag about but everything to be loved for. It is becoming a child again, a child who is loved simply for being, simply for smiling, simply for reaching out.
And so we move towards Ash Wednesday...
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