NOTE: Here are my worship notes for this coming Sunday: July 27, 2014. They are part three in a series using Walter Brueggemann's book, Sabbath as Resistance, as a foundation.
Introduction
From time to time I ask
myself: Does my work really matter? Don’t get me wrong, ok? I LOVE being a
pastor. I love preaching and teaching, I cherish pastoral calls and I have even
grown to value and celebrate that rarely seen but absolutely essential aspect
of ministry called administration. I treasure my work with my colleagues – you
won’t find a better group of people doing ministry together than Carlton,
Becky, Crystal, Mark and David – and the creativity and commitment of Church
Council and our volunteers is profound.
And yet, in the quiet and
dark moments of the night, when I am all alone and reflecting in prayer on the
state of the world and my own soul, I have my doubts that the work I do really
matters. And I say this out loud because
some of us think that doubt is the opposite of faith. We
worry than when we are uncertain of God’s presence in our lives, when we weep
and cry out, “Why is this happening to me, Lord?” or just throw up our hands in
exasperation and say, “I give up – none of this makes sense – I don’t know what
to believe!” we tend to think that this is somehow being unfaithful.
+ And I know you
grasp what I’m trying to say because over the years I’ve heard you say to me and
one another things like, “I know I shouldn’t feel like this… or have these
questions… or be so confused but…”
+ You have said those
things before, right? Things like “where IS God in the midst of this mess? Or how
can a loving God allow such horrors to like this happen?” Are you with me?
Well listen up because I want
to remind you – and myself – that doubt is NOT the polar opposite of faith.
Doubt is an integral element of a vibrant, adult faith – a way of taking us
deeper into the mystery of God’s grace – a way of helping us come to trust the
Lord beyond our feelings. I’m not saying that feelings are bad, just that they
are just incomplete – partial clues in our quest for God’s assurance in the
real world.
That wise old soul, Fr.
Richard Rohr of the Center for Contemplation and Action in New Mexico, recently
put it like this: “The spiritual journey is a
journey into Mystery, requiring us to enter the “cloud of unknowing” where the
left brain always fears to tread. Precisely because we’re being led into Mystery,
we have to let go of our need to know and our need to keep everything under
control. Most of us are shocked to discover how great this need is.”
He goes on to
clarify this point saying:
There are three
primary things that we have to let go of: First is the compulsion to be
successful. Second is the compulsion to be right—even, and especially, to be
theologically right. (That’s merely an ego trip, and because of this need,
churches have split in half, with both parties prisoners of their own egos.)
And finally there is the compulsion to be powerful, to have everything under
control. I’m convinced these
are the three demons Jesus faced in the wilderness (Matthew 4:1-11). And until
we each look these three demons in their eyes, we should presume that they are
still in charge in every life. The demons have to be called by name, clearly,
concretely, and practically, spelling out just how imperious, controlling, and
self-righteous we all are. This is the first lesson in the spirituality of
subtraction.
And this spirituality
of subtraction is what I want to talk about with you today as we
continue the series “Sabbath as Resistance.” Jesus spoke of it when he told his
disciples that the mystery of God’s way in the world could only be discussed in
parables – weird, open-ended stories – that evoke more questions than answers. Our lesson from
Matthew’s gospel says: That’s all Jesus
did that day – tell stories – it became one long, story-telling afternoon. This
was to fulfill the prophecy of the Lord in Isaiah: God’s servant will open his
mouth and tell stories; she will bring out into the open things once hidden
since the world’s first day.
+ Just
think of those stories: God’s kingdom is
like a nasty weed born of a mustard seed that is both ritually unclean AND a
problem to the garden? Where is the blessing in that?
+ Or
God’s invitation to grace is like a woman waiting for a loaf of bread to rise?
That’s like telling us to stand by the stove and watch for the water to boil.
Weird!
But such is the hidden
wisdom of this spirituality of subtraction – the blessings born of resting on
the Sabbath rather than adding more work and so-called productivity to our days
– the embrace of God’s grace in our ordinary lives that comes to pass when we
no longer need to be right or successful or in control. That’s what inspires St. Paul when he tells
us to look to the Cross as an icon of God’s presence rather than the symbols of
wealth or power: “The
moment we get tired in the waiting, God’s Spirit is right alongside helping us
along. And if we don’t know how or what to pray, it doesn’t matter: God does
our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching
groans.”
And
just so that there is no spiritual ambiguity, Paul goes on to say: With God on our side like this, how can we
lose?
If
God didn’t hesitate to put everything on the line for us, embracing our
condition and exposing himself to the worst by sending his own Son, is there
anything else he wouldn’t gladly and freely do for us? The One who died for
us—who was raised to life for us!—is in the presence of God at this very moment
sticking up for us. Do you think anyone is going to be able to drive a wedge
between us and Christ’s love for us? There is no way! Not trouble, not hard
times, not hatred, not hunger, not homelessness, not bullying threats, not
backstabbing, not even the worst sins listed in Scripture.
+ That’s why I carry this little cross with me most days – and
wear one around my neck, too – the Cross reminds me that God’s presence is real
even when I am confused.
+ When my feelings cause me to question whether what I am doing
really matters – when the evidence of the world is shaped by violence and fear,
brokenness and obsession – the Cross tells me a different truth. It speaks to me of God’s way – God’s
spirituality of subtraction – that I need to keep returning to over and over
again.
Insights
Professor
Walter Brueggemann, in his reflections on honoring and hallowing
the Sabbath,
calls doing this “resistance to coercion.”
You see, he wants us to know that the ancient story of Israel can also
be read as a contemporary critique on our own stories even in 21st
century America. “At Sinai” he writes, where Moses and his wandering people
received the 10 Commandments, they made a defining choice. “Israel decided to
trust the God who made heaven and earth, to rely on the guaranteed
reliabilities of creation and to eschew the anxiety that comes from loss of
confidence in the sureness of the creator and the goodness of creation.”
+ He goes on to tell us, however, that just because they made
that choice once doesn’t mean that everything was simple and beautiful
ever after! Sure they chose to honor the Lord in Exodus 20, but by Exodus 32 –
when Moses had been gone on the mountain for forty days and forty nights –
“they fell back into their anxiety” and started to worship OTHER gods.
+ Do you recall the whole story? With Moses gone, the people
gathered up all their gold – that’s an important clue that has legs in 2014 –
melted it all down and formed what? A
golden calf – an idol of fertility for many in the Middle East – around which
God’s people started to drink and dance and offer up burnt sacrifices in wild
abandon.
Now let’s think about this for just a
moment: one of the things the Bible tells us if we’re paying attention is that
people are just people. We screw up – we repent – we become fickle and afraid –
and no matter how hard we try we are likely to fall back on our old ways when
we get confused. It doesn’t matter if those old ways and ideas no longer serve
us; if this story tells us anything it is that human beings often give up on
the way of the Lord when we are uncertain and under pressure. The story also tells us that God doesn’t quit
on us, but it is clear that we often try to find short cuts or distractions in our
confusion rather than go deeper into our commitment to the spirituality of
subtraction.
+ We fall off the wagon – we go on a shopping spree when we’re
depressed – we have an affair – we pick a fight – we binge and purge – we look
to the absurdity of war when we don’t know how to find God’s peace.
+ Ancient Israel and modern people are not all that different:
rather than wait for the water to boil or the bread to rise, we want to fix
things right now and so turn to idols and old, worn-out habits or addictions
that give us the illusion of control.
+ Brueggemann puts it like this with penetrating clarity: “Israel
imagined that with a rightly honored commodity, they could purchase their
security in a world that seemed devoid of the creator.”
So Moses comes down off of the
mountain and sees this drunken debauchery taking place around the golden calf –
and he is furious. He is heart-broken and frustrated, he is anguished and
afraid, he is bewildered and sickened. So he smashes the stone tablets upon
which tradition tells us God inscribed the 10 Commandments. And this too is a
very human response: have you
ever broken something when you became angry or hurt?
+ I have – I’m not proud of it – but I’ve smashed things in anger:
punched a hole in a door, kicked-in a kitchen cabinet, torn apart books and
banged my head against the wall.
+ Moses shows us what humans often look like when we have been
wounded or betrayed – it isn’t pretty – but it is true.
Now
here’s the deeper truth: in his anger over the people’s
betrayal, Moses breaks the covenant with God. We may miss that truth given the
emotions of the story, but when Moses smashes the tablets, the covenant with
the Lord “was dissolved… and for a moment in time Israel was rendered hopeless
and Moses was bereft.”
Did
you realize that part of the story? We are told that God was so broken
hearted and angry that for a moment the covenant was dissolved. And it takes a
ton of prayer and posturing by Moses to get the Holy One to relent. Christians
tend to gloss over this nuance, but the story tells us that for a moment in
time God withdrew grace and hope from Israel – they were left to fend for
themselves (which is what the wrath of God means: God’s absence) – until “the
God who nullified the covenant committed an enormous act of forgiveness and
shared blessings again despite Israel’s anxiety.”
+ And central again to the new covenant was Sabbath: Six days you shall work, but on the seventh
day you shall rest; even in plowing time and in harvest time you shall rest.
+ Now why do you suppose God included mention of plowing time
and harvest time in this new covenant? Brueggemann suggests that it has
something to do with our charge to be stewards over all the earth.
“Humans are to participate in
creating and caring for all of life, but they are to trust the land – trust
creation – enough to rest, even in the busy agricultural seasons of sowing and
reaping; human life is to conform to the rhythms of creation and when we are in
sync with that, then we can rest and be free from anxiety.”
+ What are you thinking about all of this so far? Any thoughts or reactions
+ Before I continue I am curious to know your reactions because
I think this restoration of the covenant story is really powerful and valuable
for our age that is so out of balance with work and anxiety.
As the story of Moses and Israel matures,
eventually – after a full 40 years of wandering – they make it to the Promised
Land. And throughout the 40 years of
wandering Moses has been teaching and training the people to remember: remember
how easy it is to violate the covenant – remember where we came from – remember
God’s forgiveness. Over and over again in the book of Deuteronomy, Moses tells
his people: do not forget. Do not forget the Lord who brought you out of
the land of Egypt. Do not forget the
Lord who released you from the house of slavery. Do not forget that God forgave
us and renewed our covenant and blessings.
You see, Moses was particularly
afraid that after the wandering in the desert, where life was hard, once Israel
reached the bounty and beauty of the Promised Land, he was worried that they
would forget the spirituality of subtraction. He is deeply concerned that when life
became easy, Israel would do what many people do: forget the source of their
blessings. Brueggemann calls this “social amnesia” wherein we forget the Lord
and start to trust just ourselves.
“This is the core argument of the
book of Deuteronomy,” he tells us. The center of covenantal teaching is that:
“life is NOT a rat race in which people remain exhausted from coercive goals;
it is, rather, a covenantal enterprise exercised on behalf of the whole
community.” We were created in blessing for the common good, not the pursuit of
individual life, liberty and happiness. That is why when the 10 Commandments
are restated in Deuteronomy, the Sabbath is defined by God’s act of
liberation:
Observe the Sabbath day and keep it
holy, as the Lord your God commanded you. Six days you shall labor and do all
your work. But the seventh day is a Sabbath to the Lord your God; you shall not
do any work – you or your son or your daughter or your male or your female
slave or your ox or your donkey or any of your live stock or even the resident
alien in your towns, so that all may rest as well as you.
(Deuteronomy 5: 12-14)
+ Did you grasp the change in this restatement of the
commandment? God’s work in creation is no longer the core – there is no mention
of how God was at work in the beginning of time in Deuteronomy – just God’s act
of liberation from slavery in Egypt.
+ Because we are so likely to forget, God calls to remember
that we were set free in order to live in balance with the way of the Lord – that
includes women and men, children and animals and even the refugees and
undocumented workers caring for us in our various towns and communities – we
are ALL to rest as a way to
remember God’s gracious forgiveness for
it is so easy to forget
On Monday I was reading in
the NY Times a story called “In the
Battleground of Words, Hatred and Muddied Reality”- it is about how both
Palestine and Israel have forgotten the common humanity of one another –
especially in their wars of propaganda.
Palestine insists that whenever talking about the dead they must always
be called “innocent citizens” while Israel on describing the dead as “human
shields sacrificed by heartless terrorists.”
The report goes on to tell us
that recently countless Israeli cell phone users “received a text message that
bragged: we forced you to hide in shelters like mice.” It also notes that when
slain Palestinian women and children are discussed on Israeli TV they are
mostly called “the uninvolved.” Israeli novelist, Etgar Keret, asks us to think
about such Orwellian language.
“There’s something about this
‘uninvolved, something passive about it. You admit that he or she is not
somebody who is trying to destroy you, but you don’t give them any other
identification (or humanity.) It was not a child who wanted to learn how to
play the piano… it was just somebody who didn’t shoot at us.” (NY Times, July 21,
2014)
Conclusion
We become our worst selves when
we don’t remember. We fall back into our
worst habits, traditions and addictions
when we don’t remember. We become agents of hatred and self-loathing when we don’t
remember. To which our sacred tradition says: REMEMBER THE SABBATH AND KEEP IT HOLY AS THE LORD YOUR GOD COMMANDED YOU.
+ Sabbath breaks
the cycle of coercion and lets us know that:
we do not have to do more, we do not have to sell more, we
do not have to control more, we do not have to know more, we do
not have to take our children to another ballet, dance or sporting event, we do
not have to try to become more beautiful or younger than the latest sexy
starlet or hunk on
+ And we do not
have to score more than this or that opponent. If we practice Sabbath, if we remember,
we break the pattern of coercion and anxiety so that all of creation becomes
like us – equals – with equal worth, equal value, equal access to resources and
equal rest.
“Sabbath,” concludes Professor Brueggemann, “in
this interpretive tradition, is not simply a pause. It is an occasion for
re-imaging all of social life away from coercion and competition to
compassionate solidarity and equality.” We are always tempted or lured to
forget – we are often confused to wonder if our lives have value and meaning –
to which the Lord says: Remember… remember the Sabbath and keep it holy… for
when you do you will know that I have already given you everything you need for
life. Such is the good news for those who have ears to hear.
credits:
+ revgeary.wordpress.com
RJ-- This is wonderful. Really fine...Esp. the part about Moses breaking the covenant in anger...worth meditating on. Definitely. And an interesting juxtaposition with a "vacation" book I am reading by G. May on Will and Spirit. Heady stuff. Describes spiritual error(s). I have definitely come to the end of my wits, any illusion of control, and any comprehension of this current "chapter." Perhaps in the unknowing there is knowing and rest (Sabbath) but more of the Jubilee sort (LOL).
ReplyDeleteNext time, I think that I'll just pick a beach read. :)
I love Gerald May - very challenging and insightful - but you are right from time to time a good summer read is just what the Spirit ordered. I am reading a LOT of stuff on Israel and Palestine - as well as Slow Church and Brueggeman - but also Danse Macabre by Gerald Elias - who has an ongoing relationship with Tanglewood Music Festival. It is hard going when we come to realize that there is almost NOTHING we can control; but therein comes the blessing, too. You are often in my prayers.
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